2003-09-13 - 10:03 p.m.

Whoa... haven't been updating in here while I have been in LJ? Feeling left out? Hope not. Anyway, here's all the latest from geek-land.

[09 Sep 2003|02:08pm]

What is with me and women with self-esteem problems?

feyqueen ~ My wife says she can't cook and isn't attractive.

starkodama ~ Poor Lauren thinks no one wants to do her.

foxxydancer ~ I know she has similar issues.

The list goes on...

Screw it. I should just start a harem for the sole purpose of showing these radiant and wondeful ladies just how wrong they are.

*charming grin*

I took the red pill. [13 Sep 2003|09:44am]

[ mood | sick ]

[ music | Three Doors Down, "Kryptonite" ]

Morpheus

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Good Lord. *looks at last entry* Thanks to everyone who chimed in, I feel kinda special. And I'm glad people actually read this drivel.

It's been a while since I had a good rant, something deeply philosophical, or anything significant to say about my past or my mistakes. Unfortunately at the moment I'm still a bit of a dry well. I haven't been feeling my best lately, what with bill issues and various types of sickness I'm not terribly down with.

Lately it's occured to me that it's the fact that I'm a part of reality. I'm not living in a dream or running away from serious issues through fantasies or vicariousness. When the time came, when I was faced with trying to go on pretending or dealing with the realities of my life, I took the red pill. Sometimes, a bit like Neo, I'll look out the window of the car and gaze at a good eatery or wonder about someone I knew. But the world is different. Changed. I feel it in the water, I smell it in the air... not to mix metaphors.

...Not much more to say... attention span is waning. I'll write more later.

"You're gonna help me back up again" [13 Sep 2003|09:45pm]

[ mood | determined ]

[ music | Rancid, "Fall Back Down" ]

I find it's always best to perform for an appreciative audience.

That's part of the reason I married Shannon. Tonight, as she moaned and did her best to deal with her migraine and the cramps, I took care of putting groceries away, drew her a bath, did the dishes and took out the garbage.

She protested. She protested!

"This isn't right. I should be the one taking care of you."

This is a big reason I married her. This is why I love her. She didn't sit back and let me cater to her every whim, she felt as if she wasn't doing her job as a wife. But it's hard for her to do too much right now, as much pain as she's in. There are times when I simply have to take care of her, the way she takes care of me.

I think she's a big part of the way I manage to make it through the day, how I overcome my past mistakes and look to a brighter future. I can accomplish so much with her in my life... I don't know if she has any idea how grateful I am to have her, even when she's being whiney and bitchy... because when she is, for the most part, it just drives me to make her feel better. To cater to her and take care of her. Which she keeps thanking me for... which brings me back to my point.

It's always better with someone who appreciates you, and tells you so as often as possible.

But enough of my ramblings. EverQuest calls. Huzzah!

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